the ring

Relationship is about a responsibility.

You risik, You lamar, You nikah. Simple.

but did you know how much a ring cost you?

It cost a life of a woman. Her status.
The moment she accept the ring, the moment it's on her finger, it is when she dedicate her life for you. it is the moment she's ready to be yours and how she persiapkan diri to be taken.
Once you put a ring on ones finger.
That's mean the whole responsibility is on your shoulder, same as when you lafaz the akad.
thus, if you can't afford the responsibility.
please just dont.

Jangan main main.

Jangan ikat.

Jangan gantung.

when i was your man

my pride, my ego, my needs, and my selfish ways

caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life

now i never, get to clean up the mess i made

and it haunts me every time i close my eyes

it all just sounds like

too young, too dumb to realize
that i should've have bought you flowers
and held your hand
should've gave you all my hours

when i had the chance

take you to every party

cause all you wanted to do was dance

now my baby's dancing

but she's dancing with another man

although it hurts

I'll be the first to say that i was wrong

i know I'm probably much too late

to try and apologize for my mistakes

but i just want you to know

i hope he buys you flowers

i hope he holds your hand

give you all his hours

when he has the chance

take you to every party

cause i remember how much you loved to dance

do all the things i should have done

when i was your man.

you.

Dear you

Nothing more that I want in this world. Nothing else can satisfy me as I do now. Everything seems so complete. I just can’t ask for more.

Thank you darling for spend your day with me.

Thank you for being so much understanding.

Thank you for always concern.

Thank you for trying your best.

We once just friends. Just friend.

We plan it though. No worries. Everything will be just fine. Amin.

It’s strong enough. Never ask for more. Never doubt.

It’s all it need. Patient

p/s: please, let the degree finish faster. 

kisah kita.

#This post in censored, and can’t be seen by certain people.

Cerita hidup kita. Hanya kita yang rasa, hanya kita yang tahu.I am not living your life. So please respect mine. Which you are actually should ! And for sure, I am not living my life according to your expectation.  And I will never will.You can spread all the rumors, you can make a lot of stories about me, you can stab me from behind berkali kali but at the end, it all comes back to you. It the way life is.You don’t have to feel inferior just because I’m moving so fast. It just what God has planned it for me. Don’t be so jealous of me. You don’t have to.
You may think and say that your life is better than mine, you got family, you got friend, you got car, you got money, you got lover and all but seriously people, you don’t have a life.Buat apa nak cerita jaja jaja kisah orang? See there, obviously, u doesn’t have a life to live for.If you are happy enough, kau tak akan ada masa nak jaja jaja reka cerita kisah orang. My life maybe doesn’t as great as yours, but at least I’m not the one who ada masa gossiping about others.Seriously, this all are pftttt! I am sick of it. Dear people, please don’t judge people based on what you see or what you fell. It may break their heart, and at the end they will break yours too. it’s a karma man. Mind that.
I am sorry for being so kasar here. Assalamualaikum, and have a nice day people.

in shahid.

Assalamualaikum, this is a story on october 2011, a friend of mine.

"Salam, to my beloved friends, today a friend of mine in kmb just passed away, maybe Allah loves him more than we can love him, but that is not the issue here. What happen to him is inevitable but there is possibility it could be detected earlier, but the doctors who treated him never really treat him seriously. He was suffering, constant headache, pain, he couldn't even sleep for nights, could eat, my room was just 3 rooms away from his and across him room is the only way to the shower. Imagine the pain, i still remember what one doctor said to him, " saya tahu awak nak mc, tak payah lah nak berlakon sakit", i was shocked to hear that.

Can't u even see his face, he could even barely walk, and someone has to hold his hand. Another doctor even said," dalam sebulan, datang buat appointment, baru bole further", is that even humane? i know that maybe there are cases where students play truant n act sick n all, but when it comes to your profession as a doctor, there are responsibility not only that of a doctor to a patient, to Allah and as well as to yourself, i believe a doctor or what so ever person u'll be should carry out ur responsibility to a full extent. The doctors didn't even examine. They should have been more thorough. I am furious with this fact that doctors are slacking from their responsibility. What is the mindset of a doctor? Is it wage or is it to help?

Being a doctor bukanlah glamour semata-mata, u have a large responsibility, tanggungjawab yang merangkumi bukan sahaja family kau but all the ones who are in need, setiap kali ada patient, check betul2, make sure, u think ur intuition is always right? intuition is a part of emotion that is always influenced by our past experience and feelings, its sometimes unreliable at cases like this, so please, when u become a doctor, make sure u do your job, same goes to other occupation that u'll have one day.

Al Fatihah to arwah Ihsan Shaharani.